I'm ready for summer.

But I'm still holding onto winter.

The flakes are covering the woods behind my apartment.

But this is only the beginning, there are inches covering it now.

Yet I still desire the beach,

and the mountains at the same time.

I guess I am at an advantage in life though.

Because I live close enough to the beach,

while still a few hours from the mountains.

How can you not want to be here?

There is just something about communing with nature. 

Whenever I am outside hiking in the woods or taking pictures at the beach,

I feel so much closer to God. I feel so much more in tune with the realization that there is so much more

to this world we live in than I will ever understand.

Nothing makes sense, but this does. 

Snow falling. Waves crashing. 

People living.

so i was looking at the goals i set on a blog recently and wanted to update

i have successfully painted my bedroom and re-decorated it

it went from a very overwhelming aqua color from middle school

to a pale yellow.

i took out one of the two twin beds

and re-arranged the furniture

i am still in the process of hanging up art and decorations

but i am hoping to complete that today

as for the other goals: i am running a race in a city nearby for breast cancer in october

i haven't started knitting yet, which is unfortunate

i have baked pumpkin bread and pumpkin scones

the bread was fabulous. the scones however, were a flop

i need a better recipe

but i don't have pictures

seeing as my nikon lens broke and i don't have money to replace it

this is probably the saddest thing that has happened in a while

and as for volunteering at an orphanage, that has yet to happen

however, i am most likely going to nicaragua in the spring

and i hope to be working with orphans and children in general there

lately i am enjoying things such as:

- our new public library. the old one we had since before I was born and it was never re-decorated or re-vamped which made it smell old and the same librarian is still ringing up the books. while there is something quaint about this, it's not that picturesque

but we have a brand new library, and its lovely

- working out at my new place of business. i work at the ymca as the parents morning out director and while it can be tiring working with kids, i am enjoying it. but getting to workout there for free is awesome. getting hit on by 60 yr old men named Al however, is not.

- the fall weather. i know that I have already stated this several times lately but fall is my favorite season of all seasons. mostly because i like the changing of leaves and the crisp cool air. but i love all that comes with fall such as: beanies, scarves, sweaters, pumpkin pie, actually everything pumpkin like candles and goodies. lately i have been driving with my windows down and i could easily fall in love during fall.

while i was a little upset about moving home after having lived by myself for four years and graduated college, it actually has been good for me. enjoy family while you can because growing up has a lot more responsibility than i think we all realize at certain times of our lives.

oh, i'm going to ministry school now. it's just what i need and God's love is so sweet.

off to drink some french press coffee and read outside in the cool fall morning weather. mmm.

thoughts.

dreams within

abound

to where

distant seas

fire melts

eyes burn

become glazed

pottery breaks

shatters

pieces that disappear

untraceable

you fumble around

the night creates

your movement

unabashed

nothing stops

fear within

the egg cracks

new life

from brokenness

set free